I am going crazy! Happy crazy, but still crazy!
We finally set a new wedding date! We are getting married Saturday, Nov. 30, 2013 at 3 pm! I am beyond excited!!!! (You could probably tell by the excessive use of exclamation points... Lol!)
This means that I have 5 months, 2 weeks, 5 days, 19 hours, 45 minutes, and (as of ths exact moment) 37 seconds until I am walking down that aisle. That is 25 weeks. 173 days. 4,149 hours. 248,925 minutes. 14,935,420 seconds!
There is so much that needs to be done, and so little time to do it! I'm worried that we won't be able to finish everything. I need to finalize the guest list, order save-the-dates, address and send out the save-the-dates, order invitations (that don't cost an arm and a leg!), get them out and wait for response cards, finalize guest count, make a seating chart. I need to find a large (40 x 60 or bigger) tent to rent, with a floor in case of rain. I need a photographer (again, one that is affordable!) We have to decide if we want to stick with BBQ style food for the reception, and if so, what all to serve. I need to finalize the bridesmaid dresses, and go try on my dress again. I also need a veil and possibly a capelet.... Question: Will a capelet for my arms and shoulders work with a cathedral length veil? It will probably be cold, and I am not a fan of my arms, so I would like to have them covered. And, it's Snow White themed, so a little capelet would be adorable. But will a veil work, or will that be too much going on? I really want my veil! I need to figure out shoes and accessories, as well as undergarments for me. I need to get the dress altered. We need to decide what color suits we want for the men. The girls will be wearing yellow dresses and carrying blue flowers. The boys will have blue ties, and a yellow buttonire. So, grey or black suits? I personally like grey better, but don't know if it will match. Chris and I also need to re-register for everything, since when we cancelled our March 23rd wedding, our registries ended up expiring. I'm also fairly certain that this list is incomplete, and that there are lots of things that I am forgetting at the moment.
I also want to lose at least 50 pounds by the wedding. I want to look like a princess on my wedding day, and feel 100% beautiful. I'm starting to worry a bit that it might not turn out that way.
Whew! I feel better now that I got all that out. Anybody have any suggestions/advice/opinions? Feel free to leave me a comment!
Lots of love,
I have been doing really well with continuing to eat healthy! I am proud to say that I still can't eat as much, and I don't really want junk food anymore.
Here is a sample of my food for while I'm at work. Strawberry banana smoothie, Greek yogurt, grapes, shredded wheat crackers, a small piece of lemon pepper chicken, and in the Tupperware there are a few pieces of sharp white cheddar cheese and a slice of pepper jack cheese.
I have been trying to eat smaller amounts more frequently throughout the day. I have all this in my lunch bag, and it is my breakfast, mid-morning snack, lunch, and mid-afternoon snack. I still feel great! I have been waking during the night again, but I still have more energy throughout the day, I don't feel sluggish or bloated, and my face is still clear. I've been continuing to drink just water, herbal teas, and one juice a day. I haven't weighed myself since Friday, mainly because I didn't want to be discouraged by watching the weight drop off slower.
Fresh and Easy has become my favorite grocery store! They have great prices, fresh meat and produce, and a good selection of organic/preservative free staple ingredients!
We are going to Chris's family reunion 4th of July weekend, and I'm already playing around with different, healthy food and snack options for me to bring up! I'm still excited about being healthy, and I can't wait to join the gym! My wedding is in 5 months, that is huge motivation for me to get into shape!!! I can't wait!!!! :)
Hey guys. :) I wanted to give you an update on everything. I finished off Day 10 going strong. I lost 15 pounds in 10 days!
Here's the thing though... I decided I need to take a break from my juicing fast. Chris and I had a long talk about it. We decided its probably not the best if I hate what I'm doing. I think I should've started off with a smaller goal. I went from not juicing at all to trying to do nothing but juice for 60 days. I made it 10 days, and I'm proud of myself for that. I am a little bummed that I didn't finish. And I'm sorry if I am disappointing any of you who said I was inspiring you or encouraging you.
During those 10 days, I did learn a lot, and I most definitely established new habits! I believe I have way more willpower than when I first started. I also changed my eating habits. I have not gone back to eating crap. I have been craving things that are good for me. I broke my fast yesterday morning with a nectarine. For lunch I went to Subway and got a 6 inch turkey sandwich on honey oat bread. I made sure to get veggies on it (I got tomatoes, olives, lettuce, cucumbers, and peppers on it). And apparently my tummy has shrunk, because after half of it I was full. I ate the other half for dinner. I also haven't had any pop or coffee. And I am going to keep it that way.
I am still on my journey to be healthy. I will still juice at least once a day. I will be eating whole foods, and I am trying to avoid anything processed. Chris will be doing this with me, and I think that will make it super easy! I do almost all of the cooking anyways, and this way we will both be eating healthy. :) I also still plan on including lots of fruits and veggies in my diet. I will be taking my lunch to work almost every day as well, instead of being tempted to go out and get something that isn't very good for me.
Starting June 20th, I am joining "Chuze fitness", a gym one block down from my office. I plan on going after work. I will start off with 2-3 days a week, and I will eventually increase it to 5 days a week. I just need to be super careful to take it slow and not do anything that will cause me to injure any part of myself.
I will also be continuing blogging. I want to be able to look back at my journey to get healthy years down the road. And, I really do believe it holds me more accountable. If I find any really good recipes or anything, I'll put them on here as well.
I also plan on doing a 3 day juice fast once a month. I love the way the juice made me feel. I am a bit bummed and disappointed in myself for stopping. I know I made the right choice for me, but a part of me feels like I'm a quitter, and that I let people down.
Today has been a rough day. I feel great when I'm juicing, but I'm starting to get so tired of it. I want to eat so badly. And not even unhealthy stuff. Right now I would give anything for grilled chicken seasoned with lemon and garlic, and steamed broccoli. I'm trying to be strong and stick with it, but right now I am a complete mess. The thought of any juice is revolting to me right now.
I really want to stick with this because I know in the long run it will be so worth it. I just don't want to be this miserable. I'm almost at the point where I'd rather go hungry than juice, and I know that's not healthy at all.
I feel so stupid, sitting here crying while I write! Ugh! I just need to pull it together and push through.
I can do all things through Christ who strentghens me.
So, I'm gonna hang in there.
A week ago today I started my fast. It has been a bit of a rollercoaster! My emotions have been flying high, but I finally feel great! I can't believe how much a difference just one week made for me. I lost 12 pounds, have gone 8 days without caffeine, come to love water, and have started craving healthy things. I also feel great, which is huge. I have a ton of energy, have been sleeping all through the night (that is huge for me! I'm used to waking up multiple times throughout the night and staying up for 20 or so minutes each time), and am just all around feeling better.
I love the fact that I am losing weight, and the fact that its starting to be noticable. That is so encouraging to me! My face is starting to breakout again though so I'll be even happier when my face clears up!
I have a feeling today is going to be a long day though! I woke up late (we have to leave the house by 8 on Tuesdays so Chris and I can both get to work on time) and had 5 minutes to get ready. Therefore, I was unable to juice for breakfast, and I couldn't make anything for lunch. Chris has the car, so I won't be able to eat anything until about 6:15 tonight. I am drinking water like crazy, in hopes that it will keep me satisfied.
Also, it is really hard to concentrate on juicing and being healthy and not giving in to temptation when your tummy is growling and your co-workers ordered pizza, have popcorn in the microwave, and are eating snack cakes! I am determined to make it through the day though! :)
Ok, I am super proud of myself! First off, I am down 12 pounds since Tuesday. That's 2 pounds a day! I am so excited! I still feel great as well. :) Yesterday I treated myself by getting a new outfit.
Also, I was SO good today! Chris and I went to my parent's house for my sister's birthday party. They had all kinds of food I love, and I didn't touch it! They had BBQ pizzas, pasta salad, regular salad, fruit salad, veggies and dip, hummus and pita bread, brownies, dirt cake, and ice cream. I watched everybody eat and didn't touch any of it... I really wanted a bite of that dirt cake though! I was good and had my Jamba Juice instead.
This is getting easier, so I'm more confident that I can complete the 60 days with no problem. My dad said that I'm strengthening my willpower, and I think he's right. I can't wait to see what else I can accomplish. I am really excited to see how much more weight I can lose! Also, my face is starting to clear up, which makes me even happier! I'm just happy all around tonight!!!
This morning started off great! I woke up feeling amazing and had a ton of energy. And then TOM decided he was going to come visit me 5 days early. All of the sudden, I NEEDED a carne asada burrito...and I am bummed and ashamed to say that I gave in. :(
I learned a valuable lesson though. The first two bites tasted absolutely amazing. And then I took another few bites and I was full. It took me over 2 hours to eat one burrito. And what I thought I needed, what I thought would be so amazing, kind of sucked. It made me feel sluggish and gross. It made my tummy hurt. It made me bloated. Nothing about it was worth it. And right after I finished, I started craving juice. With vegetables in it.
So, even though I messed up, I'm not going to be too angry at myself or feel too guilty about it. My "cheating" really opened my eyes. My body doesn't want or need crap. I feel so much better when I am eating (mostly drinking) things that are good for me! And this is after only 4 days!!! I know that the next 56 days are going to be way easier now! If I do find myself craving something, I'll look back to how I feel now. (Which is pretty crappy!) And I have a feeling that after the 60 days are over, I won't want to eat any processed, unhealthy food. I am looking forward to continuing with a new, healthy lifestyle!
It is really hard to cook someone else dinner while on a juice fast! I was trying to be really nice and surprise Chris with dinner when he got home from work. I made him chicken and had all intentions of making him mashed potatoes to go with it. Unfortunately, the chicken smelled so good that I couldn't handle it anymore. I didn't cheat, but I definitely was not happy. My stomach was and is growling so much. All I want to do is eat something. My mouth won't stop watering. I did not make the mashed potatoes. I would not be able to resist the cheddar garlicky goodness. :(
Anybody want to distract me from thoughts of food???
I think this is finally starting to get easier. And I am SO stinkin' grateful for that. It's 7:45, and I haven't even taken a nap today! The last 2 days I have been so incredibly exhausted, but it seems like I finally have energy again. :)
Last night, my dinner was completely awful. I threw it all up then went to bed starving. I had been reading different ideas for how to switch things up on a juice fast, and some people suggested making an all vegetable juice, then heating it up and drinking it like a soup. I thought it was a great idea, and was so excited to try it! I juiced tomatoes, carrots, celery, bell pepper, broccoli, and spinach together and then warmed it up. It looked like it would be delicious. I started drinking it, and it was horrible! I didn't want to waste it, so I continued to drink it. About 2 minutes later I proceeded to puke my guts out. Then I was so emotional and exhausted that I laid down and pretty much cried myself to sleep without any dinner.
I woke up this morning still feeling pretty awful. I pulled myself together (weighing myself helped, I've lost 8 pounds so far!) and made myself breakfast. I wanted nothing to do with veggies, so I juiced a red apple, a green apple, and a pear together. It was so good! It was just what I needed this morning. For lunch I made an antioxidant blend of black cherries, blueberries, and strawberries. That one was also good. It was very tart, but it was a nice change. I still haven't decided what to do for dinner yet.
Aside from losing the 8 pounds, I am starting to feel a lot better. I also noticed my tummy isn't bloated. I never really noticed, but I think I was probably bloated all the time and just realized it. I like having a mostly flat tummy!
On a side note, I really want a bean and cheese burrito at the moment. I think I would give absolutely anything for one right now. So, at midnight on July 20th, I think I am going straight to a Mexican food place, and getting myself a bean and cheese burrito... not that my stomach will be able to handle the grease, dairy, or gluten at that point... I can dream though, can't I?
I got about 12 hours of sleep last night! I woke up a few times to my stomach growling, but was able to go back to sleep fairly quickly. When I woke up this morning, I felt like I had a hangover. All I've been drinking is juice, so there is no possibly way I could've been hungover.
My breakfast this morning was pretty good. I juiced a pineapple, a pint of starberries, and a head of broccoli. I was worried at first about the broccoli; when I ran it through the juicer, it had a very strong odor. I did NOT want it to taste as strong as it smelled! Once I juiced the other ingredients and mixed it all together, it was really good! Soon after drinking it, I had a ton of energy and felt great!
For lunch I met one of my best friends, Tasha, at Jamba Juice. I so badly wanted a smoothie that had yogurt and stuff in it, but I was a good girl. I got the "Apples 'n' Greens" smoothie. It was very earthy tasting, and took a bit to get used to. By the end of the cup though, I was loving it. The company was great too! :)
My family and Chris have been so encouraging, which is very helpful to me. This is harder than I imagined it would be, but I am determined to perservere. All I can say is that I hope they keep the love, positive energy, and encouragement coming!
It's about 2:30 pm right now, and I'm not feeling so hot. My head is throbbing, I feel dizzy, and my tongue feels like it sprouted some fur between yesterday and today. Also, my face is breaking out like crazy!
:( I think now is the perfect time to make an appointment and use the facial gift card that "Santa" gave me for Christmas last year.
I think I'm going to try and make an all vegetable juice for dinner, and than warm it up, like I'm drinking soup